So, I keep stealing these surveys from Miranda, hehe. I can't help it, they're entertaining.
i am: scared, paranoid, too curious, quiet, bizarre, friendly, ready, willing, insecure, not persistent, not confident, creepy, morbid, disturbed, jealous, lonely, self-kept, embarrassed.
i love: discovering new music, reading, watching philosophical movies, dancing around like an idiot, singing my heart out, meeting new people, being home alone, Christmas ornaments, stickers, taking pictures, disturbing pictures, blood, chapstick, lotion, Hiroto Ogata, washing my hands, scary movies, hand sanitizer, spending hours in the computer, forums, internet friends, concerts, trippy music, brownies, working out, feeling pretty, feeling clean, high-waisted clothing, Nikon cameras, learning, songs that make me cry, algebra, webcaming.
i would love to be a: successful musician, better person, great mother, helpful person, smarter student.
i like to eat: brownies, mint ice cream, chocolate, quesadillas, spicy food, celery, steak, bacon, mints, fiber bars, salt and vinegar chips, broccoli, pineapples, Chinese food, sushi, food in general.
i dislike: feeling excluded, rude people, people with no manners, posers, feeling fat, feeling insecure, pain, losing my chapstick, slow internet, liars, eggs, not having enough time, mainstream music, swearing, not wearing nail polish, periods, extra letters, dog licks, black and white photos, feeling awkward and uncomfortable, lots of homework, teachers who don't care, hairdye fading, bands I like becoming popular, infected piercings, stuffy nose.
i like: the smell of coconuts, spongebob, feeling inspired, Timmy Turner, warm hands, good hair, interesting books, little kids, feeling careless, compliments, complimenting, buying a new CD, hanging out with friends, Alice Nine's PVs, pink and purple hair, new clothes, make-up, braids, Korean boy bands, Japanese, languages, dailybooth, feeling wanted, having plans, watching people dance, creativity, sad poems, eye candy, boys with nice smiles, philosophy, cookies, sparkly lip gloss, kind strangers, gay men, sad acoustic music, beautiful people, big hearts, piercings, tattoos, Mohawks, dark humour, big tanktops, yo-yos, gumball machine toys, photobooths, Hello Kitty, nicknames, learning things about myself, taking walks alone, stars, talking about feelings, the words 'obscure' and 'nostalgia', long nails.
I am: scared of life, obsessed with people who don't even speak English, not as interesting as I'd like to be, I'm not very smart; I just do all of my homework, I like water more than any other drink, I don't really like candy, I pick at my nails too much, I want to be wanted, I'm attracted to men most mothers would be scared of, I am horrible at talking to guys, I am straightedge, I like exercising more than I should, I don't really like candy, I confuse myself, I trust too easily, I automatically assume the best of people, I never lie, I hate presenting but I'm actually pretty decent at it, inspirational things make me cry, people easily annoy me but I will never say anything, I pick at my nails for a reason, I can never decide, I am all over the internet,
i have/had: seen my own father die, met Teddy Geiger, sang with the school choir even though I'm not apart of it, wished on a shooting star, seen 30 bands live, ridden in a helicopter but never a plane, an addiction to new items, never been kissed, never been in a relationship, been living my life in the most boring way.
you stole my heart @ 11:02 AM
Friday, July 30, 2010
New layout! I hadn't changed it in quite some time, so this feels good, hehe. Anyways, I have nothing to blog about, so I will do a survey.
Appearance [ ] I have/had piercings besides the ears. [x] I want piercings besides the ears. [ ] I have many scars. [ ] I tan easily. [ ] I wish my hair was a different color. [ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color. [ ] I have a tattoo. [x] I can be self-conscious about my appearance. [x] I have more than two piercings.
Embarrassment [x] Disney movies still make me cry. [x] I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried. [ ] I’ve glued my hand to something. [x] I’ve laughed until some kind of beverage came out of my nose. [] I’ve had my pants rip in public. [x] I’ve touched something sharp/hot/etc to see if it would hurt.
Health [ ] I’ve gotten stitches. [ ] I’ve broken a bone. [] I’ve had my tonsils removed. [x] I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed. [ ] I’ve had serious surgery. [x] I’ve had chicken pox.
Travel [ ] I’ve been to Florida. [ ] I’ve driven/ridden over 200 miles in one day. [ ] I’ve been on a plane. [x] I’ve been to Canada. [] I’ve been to Cuba. [] I’ve been to Niagara Falls. [x] I’ve been to Ottawa. [] I’ve been to the Caribbean. [] I’ve been to Europe.
Experiences [ ] I’ve gotten lost in my city. [x] I’ve seen a shooting star. [x] I’ve wished on a shooting star. [x] I’ve seen a meteor shower. [x] I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas. [ ] I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator. [x] I’ve slapped someone. [ ] I’ve kissed someone underwater. [ ] I’ve gone skinny-dipping. [x] I’ve chugged something. [x] I’ve crashed a car / been in a car crash. [] I’ve been skiing. [x] I’ve been in a musical. [x] I’ve auditioned for something. [x] I’ve been on stage. [x] I’ve caught a snowflake on my tongue. [x] I’ve sat on a rooftop at night. [x] I’ve pranked someone. [ ] I’ve ridden in a taxi.
Honesty / Crime [] I’ve been arrested. [] I’ve been threatened to be arrested. [x] I’ve broken a law. [ ] I’ve done something I promised someone I wouldn’t. [x] I’ve snuck out. [ ] I’ve lied about my whereabouts. [x] I’ve cheated while playing a game. [ ] I’ve been in a fist fight.
Death [x] I’m afraid of dying. [x] I hate funerals. [x] I’ve seen someone/something die. [ ] Someone close to me has attempted/committed suicide. [x] I’ve thought about suicide before. [ ] I’ve written a eulogy for myself.
Materialism [ ] I own over 5 rap CDs. [ ] I’m obsessed with anime/manga. [ ] I collected comic books. [x] I own a lot of makeup. [x] I own something from Pac Sun. [ ] I own something from The Gap. [x] I own something I got on E-Bay. [ ] I own something from Abercrombie. [ ] I thrive on compliments. [] I thrive on hate.
Random [x] I can sing well. [] I’ve stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant. [] I open up to others easily. [ ] I watch the news. [ ] I don’t kill bugs / don’t like to kill them. [ ] I sing in the shower. [ ] I’m a morning person. [ ] I’m a sports fanatic. [ ] I twirl my hair. [x] I care about grammar. [] I love spam. [] I’ve copied more than 30 CDs in a day. [x] I bake well
[] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, blue, red, black, purple, or orange. [ ] I would wear pajamas to school. [] I like Martha Stewart. [] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS. [x] I laugh at my own jokes. [] I eat fast food weekly. [ ] I’ve not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class. [x] I can’t sleep if there’s a spider in the room. [ ] I’m really ticklish. [x] I like white chocolate. [ ] I bite my nails. [x] I’m good at remembering faces. [x] I’m good at remembering names. [x] I’m good at remembering dates. [] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. [x] All my answers were and will be totally honest.
People [ ] ask if I’m anorexic/bulimic. [they have] call me fat. [ ] say I’m skinny. [they have] say I’m ugly. [x] say I’m pretty. [ ] spread rumors about me. [ ] force me to eat. [] say I eat too much. [ ] say I eat too little. [] don’t know I have an eating disorder.
Eating [x] I’ve lost weight. [ ] I’ve gained weight. [ ] I’m at my thinnest. [] I’m at my biggest. [x] I’ve lost weight and kept it off. [] I’ve lost weight but gained it back. [x] My weight affects my mood. [I used to, but the scale is broken] I weigh myself daily. [x] I’m jealous of everyone skinnier than me. [x] I feel happy when I’m hungry. [if I eat too much] I get depressed after eating. [] I diet. [ ] I’m vegan/vegetarian. [x] I’ve skipped a meal. [x] I’ve thrown food away. [x] I’ve spat food out. [] I’ve taken diet pills. [x] I’ve used laxatives. [] I’ve purged. [x] I exercise. [] I exercise so I can eat. [x] I work out daily. [x] I’ve fainted from exhaustion.
Family [ ] I’ve sworn at my parents. [ ] I’ve planned to run away from home before. [ ] I’ve run away from home. [ ] My biological parents are together. [] I have a sibling less than one year old. [x] I want kids. [] I’ve had kids. [] I’ve lost a child.
Relationships [x] I’m single. [ ] I’m in a relationship. [] I’m engaged. [] I’m married. [] I’m a swinger. [] I’ve gone on a blind date. [ ] I have/had a friend with benefits. [ ] I’ve hooked up with someone in little or no notice. [x] I miss someone right now. [x] I have a fear of abandonment. [] I’ve physically cheated in a relationship. [] I’ve mentally cheated in a relationship. [] I’ve gotten divorced. [x] I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back. [x] Someone has had feelings for me when I didn’t have them back. [ ] I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t. [ ] I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did. [ ] I’ve kept something from a past relationship.
Sexualtiy [] I’ve had a crush on someone of the same sex. [x] I’ve had a crush on a teacher. [x] I’m a cuddler. [ ] I’ve been kissed in the rain. [x] I’ve hugged a stranger. [ ] I’ve kissed a stranger.
Bad times [ ] I’ve consumed alcohol. [] I regularly drink. [x] I can’t swallow pills. [ ] I can swallow numerous pills at a time without difficulty. [x] I’ve been diagnosed with clinical depression at some point. [x] I have/had anxiety problems. [x] I shut others out when I’m upset. [] I don’t have anyone to talk to when I’m upset. [] I take anti-depressants. [] I’ve slept an entire day before. [x] I’ve hurt myself on purpose before. []I am / have been addicted to self-harm. [] I’ve woken up crying. [x] I’ve cried myself to sleep. [x] I’ve plotted revenge.
I’ve done [] Weed [] Diet pills [] Anti-depressants [] Ecstasy [] LSD [] Mushrooms [] Speed [] Cocaine [] I keep my habits a secret. [] I have a diet blog. [x] My choices are for me. [] My choices are for someone else. [x] My choices are to prove myself.
So, I'd say I'm pretty inexperienced with life. But I'm proud of my lack of drugs. :D Bleh. Have a wonderful day.
you stole my heart @ 5:36 PM
Saturday, July 3, 2010
Black and white is a lie. It hides all the flaws. It hides the reality of the world. It's a horrible cliche. Pictures in black and white are used by liars. People who don't know how to face actuality. Black and white sucks the saturation out of life. It's miserable. One uses to hide emotions. Or even create emotions that aren't really there. People think it makes a moment classic or touching, but it's just a lie. They only think they look better in black and white because that's what they are. A liar to themselves to the world to me. What they are is Black and White. But we don't live in a black and white world, we live in colour. So, why pretend that is lacks hue? Shouldn't we embrace these beautiful colours?
you stole my heart @ 7:22 PM
Friday, July 2, 2010
So, I'm in a serious survey mood, so why not post it to my blog?
1. Where is your cell phone? Sitting right beside me. :D 2. Your boyfriend/girlfriend? I don't have one. 3. Your hair? It's just chillen in a messy [very messy] braid. 4. Work? I don't have a job; however, I've been applying! 5. Your father? Wherever he is, I know it's a better place. 6. Your favorite thing? Music. 7. Your dream last night? I don't remember it.. 8. Your favorite drink? Hmm water? 9. Your dream car? Ford Fiesta! I think they're just the cutest things. 10. The room you’re in? Living room. 11. Your pet? One dog, and five cats. 12. Your fears? Clowns, midgits, spiders, smelling bad, dying, failing at life, creepy old men, drugs, being hated, life. 13. What do you want to be in 10 years? I would love to be making music. 14. Where did you hang out last night? At Emily's house! 15. What you’re not good at? Too many things. 16. Eyebrow rings on the opposite sex? Alright, alright. 17. One of your wish list items? An acoustic guitar. 18. Where you grew up? In this same place. 19. The last thing you did? Watched a music video. 20. What are you wearing? Jean shorts and a loose tanktop 21. What aren’t you wearing? Socks. 23. Your computer? Isn't doing so hot! We had the blue screen of death, so now I have to save everything.. T_T 24. Your life? I'm going through my annual summer depression. 25. Your mood? Bleh. 26. Missing? People. 27. Who are you thinking about right now? No one really. 28. Your car? I don't have one. 29. Your work? Don't have work. 31. Your relationship status? Single. 32. Your favorite colour? Green, although, purple is pretty close. 33. When is the last time you laughed? Like ten minutes ago. 34. Last time you cried? Well, I laughed so hard I cried last night, if that counts. 35. School? Summer vacation! :D
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MOUTHOLOGY
What is your salad dressing of choice? Ranch What is your favorite fast food restaurant? KFC. What is your favorite sit-down restaurant? Hm... I really enjoy the Ground Round, haha. What food could you eat every day and not get sick of it? Quesadillas. What are your pizza toppings of choice meat and cheese? Cheese doesn't matter, and sausage is excellent on pizza! What do you like to put on your toast? Cinnamon! What is your favorite type of gum? Pina Colada!
TECHNOLOGY
What is your wallpaper on your computer? Shirtless Saga, hahaha. How many televisions are in your house? Five? haha. Do you use a laptop or desktop? Desktop.
BIOLOGY
Are you right-handed or left-handed? Right. Do you like your smile? Nope. What’s your best feature? My collarbones and tiny waist. Have you ever had anything removed from your body? Negative. Which of your five senses do you think is keenest? Smell? When was the last time you had a cavity? I've never had a cavity *knocks on wood* What is the heaviest item you lifted last? Hm.. I'm not sure. Have you ever been knocked unconscious? Nope.
BULLCRAPOLOGY
If you could, would you wanna know the day you were going to die? Yes and no. Is love for real? I hope so. If you could change your first name, what would you change it to? Melanie. What color do you think looks best on you? Purple. Have you ever swallowed a non-food item by mistake? Hahah yes. Have you ever saved someone’s life? Perhaps? Has someone ever saved yours? I feel like someone has.
DAREOLOGY
Would you walk naked down a public street for $100,000? Hahah maybe. Would you kiss a member of the same sex for $100? Yes. Would you cut off one of your little fingers for $200,000? No way. Would you never blog again for $50,000? Yeah. Would you pose naked in a magazine for $250,000? Nope. Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000? Yes. Would you give up watching television for a year for $25,000? Yeah.
DUMBOLOGY
What is in your left pocket? Nothing, my poor left pocket is always neglected. Is Napoleon Dynamite actually a good movie? Hahah yes. Do you sit or stand in the shower? Stand. Who sits in a shower? Could you live with roommates? Oh definitely. How many pairs of flip flops do you own? Three? Where were you born? Here, haha. Last time you had a run-in with the cops? Never? What do you want to be when you grow up? Musician.
FAVORITOLOGY
Number? 7 and 9. Seasons? Spring.
CURRENTOLOGY
Missing someone? Yeah. Mood? Fine, relatively tired. Listening to? Sea Within a Sea - The Horrors Worrying about? Not much..
RANDOMOLOGY
First place you went this morning? The bathroom. What can you not wait to do? Perform with Acapella. :DDD What’s the last movie you saw? Simone. Do you smile often? A bit. Are you a friendly person? I like to think so.
1. Where is the boy/girl you like now? I don't really like anyone right now. 2. What were you doing Friday night? Tonight is Friday night, and well, I'm filling out a stupid survey, haha. 3. Name something you did yesterday? Laughed a whole lot. 4. Last person you text messaged? Bruce. 5. Who was the last person to call you? My mom. 6. What are you doing right now? A survey. 7. Next time you travel out of the country where will it be to? Probably Canada. 8. What color are your eyes? Hazel. 9. Are you allergic to anything? Cinnamon toothpaste, weirdest allergy ever. 10. Are you dating the last person you kissed? Nope. 11. Last place you ordered food from? I have no idea. 12. Who was the last person you shared a bed with? Emily and Kristine. 13. What color is your hair? Brown and natural blonde and red highlights, and then purple streaks. 14. Do you remember singing any songs as a kid? Oh, definitely. 15. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? I've never been kissed. 16. Who knows a secret or two about you? My closest friends. 17. When was the last time you lied? I don't remember. 18. Do you like fire? Not really, it scares me. 19. Did you have a nap today? Nope. 20. What is your favorite drink? Water. 21. What do you wear more, jeans or sweats? Jeans. 25. Where did you get the shirt you’re wearing now? PacSun! 26. Have you ever wanted to be a teacher? A guidance counselor, if that counts as a teacher. 28. Is anyone jealous of you? Probably not. 30. Have any regrets? Of course. 31. Where were you 1 hour ago? Home. 32. Where were you 8 hours ago? At Emily's house. 35. Has anyone ever told you that they like you more than as a friend? Yeah. 37. Is cheating ever okay? Certainly not. 38. Who was the last person you rode in a car with? My mother. 39. What are you looking forward to? I'm not sure. 41. Have you kissed anyone in the past week? Nope. 43. What are you listening to? Solitude is Bliss - Tame Impala. 45. Favorite Sports Team? I don't have one. 46. What song do you want played at your funeral? Something really depressing? Haha. 47. What were you doing 12 AM last night? Chatting with Kristine and Emily. 48. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up? OWWW. 49. Who will you be with this Saturday night? Hopefully Kristine and Emily, haha. 50. What woke you up this morning? Cramps. 52. Is tomorrow going to be a good night? I hope so. 53. Did you kiss or hug anyone today? No, I don't think so. 55. How many myspace accounts do you have? Just.. hahah nope, three. 56. Do or did you like school? I don't mind it. 56. Would you take a bullet for anyone? Possibly. 57. Where would you like to live? Japan. 58. Do long distance relationships work? Sometimes. 59. Does your crush like you? I don't like anyone right now. 60. Where do you see yourself in 5 years? College. 61. Have you ever thought about getting your lip pierced? Yes, but it'll never happen. 62. Does a kiss make your cuts feel better? Most certainly. 63. Have you ever passed out on the bathroom floor? Negative. 64. Can you cook? I don't know. 65. What shoe do you put on first, left or right? I really can't say, haha. 66. Have you ever brushed your teeth while in the shower? Yes! It's very convenient. 68. Have you ever thought about your death? Yes. 69. Whats your hair color? Wasn't this already asked? 70. Where do you put your towel after taking a shower? On my bed post. 71. What color is your shower curtain? I don't have a shower curtain, just a shower door, and it's clear. 72. Have you ever had stitches? Nope. 73. Are you straight? Yes. 74. Did you believe that girls have cooties? Hahah no. 75. Do you know how to use chop sticks? Yes, but I fail. 76. Can you finish the phrase, “Who lives in a pineapple under the sea?” Spongebob Squarepants!! 78. Do you sometimes believe that guys have PMS? Hahah I don't know. 79. Who was the last person you couldn’t take your eyes off of? Hm... I'm not sure. 80. Have you ever given money to a homeless person? No. 81. Have you ever run over an animal? No. 82. What is your favourite cereal? Honey Bunches of Oat. 83. Have you ever had an Oreo with peanut butter? Oh god yes, it's heaven. 84. Have you gotten a text today? Yes! 85. Do you think its right for straight guys to get their tongue pierced? Sure? 86. Where’s your favorite place to be? This question is always asked, but I never have an answer.
Boring, long survey. I apologize. I just needed to type, hahah.
you stole my heart @ 6:48 PM
Friday, June 25, 2010
Gah, so my internet failed and I just lost all of what I wrote.
It's been too long since I've last blogged. Last time I blogged, I was only 15. Hey, guess what? I'm now 16. :D And officially done with sophmore year and a junior! That scares me quite a bit. I really don't want to grow up. Bleh.
So I saw this on Delia's blog and I thought it was interesting, so I thought I'd do it as well.
1. Write your username. 2. Write your 2 favorite bands/groups of the moment. 3. Write something you ♥ aka lemme see your heart. 4. Write the name of your favorite person of all time. 5. Write the name of your recent favored person. 6. Tag 6 people to do this meme
There's a bird's nest right outside my house and the mother's eggs just hatched. They're pretty ugly, but very adorable at the same time. Those big black things, are their eyes.
you stole my heart @ 9:24 AM
Saturday, May 29, 2010
It's been too long, mon amis! Are you my friends? I don't really know. Blogs are just weird. You know. I recently read an article about 'why we blog' I thought it was pretty interesting. Blogging is such a wonderful thing because it allows one to write carelessly about whatever they want and the whole world can see it. I, myself, don't really blog with much meaning, occasionally I do, but you know. I wish I blogged more with one particular topic rather than just random rambling. It's just, whenever I feel the need to blog there's nothing I can think of to talk about. Most of the time I just go into subject without trying. But now I've paused and lost my train of thought.
Last night was cabaret night at my school, which is basically just a bunch of music acts. It's amazing how talented the people at my school are. Last night's was definitely one of the best I've been to. Just amazing. And now I've discovered a bug bite on my hand.
Today is a Dir en grey day.
you stole my heart @ 8:10 AM
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Ahh! It's almost been a month since I last blogged. My apologies.
So, I just downloaded the new Deftones album, and I will definitely add that to my birthday wishlist. My list is rather small. I just don't know what I want. I never really want much. I'm more of in-the-moment kind of buyer.
Speaking of lists, I've discovered this lovely website called listography. You just make all these different lists. I love making lists so this is definitely my kind of site. http://listography.com/yeahRAWRXD You can learn actually quite a bit about me from it. Yesterday, I was on a list making spree. So far, the lists I've created are nothing special, but you know.
Goodness, it's sunny out. I love the sun, but not when it messes up the computer screen and I can't see anything, haha. I'm really glad at how warm the weather is supposed to be this week. It's finally starting to feel like spring.
I wish I had something interesting to talk about. I feel like blogs are supposed to be really interesting topics and should have purpose, but mine rarely do that.
I got a formspring. Well, I've had it for a long time actually, but now I'm going to tell people about it. I'll probably get like no questions, but it's all good. http://www.formspring.me/yeahRAWRXD I feel like formspring is just an excuse for people to hate. Looking through other people's, it seems like all the "questions" are just rude comments. Although, I shouldn't be talking considering I've left some mean questions, but you know, it happens. XD It's amazing just how mean and ruthless people can be. I don't expect the world to be unicorns and butterflies, but for real, people need to learn to lay off on the hate. If you have a problem with someone, keep it to yourself, and don't continuously bash people. Whatever, I suppose we all the right to speak our minds, so why not?
