The Great Demonizer - Bury Your Dead

3:03 PM

I don't really know why I'm writing this entry.
I have nothing to talk about, but I'm hoping something will come up in my head.

...

Is it strange that I can watch people getting cut apart and tons of blood, while eating turkey soup?
I think there's something wrong with my brain.
And I mean that in all seriousness.
Smoking while pregnant is not a good thing!
It results in a person like me.
And no, I'm not like mentally retarded or disabled.
But I see problems developing within me as I grow up.
I think I might be part dyslexic.
I don't really know.

You know what really fascinates me?
Languages.
[No, I'm not ADD, I just have a lot of my mind for the moment.]
I don't know why, I think listening to other languages is one of the most wonderful things ever.
It's really interesting how something that sounds like nothingness to one, means the whole world to another.
I really wish I was bilingual.
I just want to learn every language!
It's all so intriguing and no language is like another.
Well, they're similar, but not the same.
Does it make me a nerd for being so mesmerized by languages?

I just listened to like four songs while writing this blog.
I keep getting distracted by The Doctors. :D

Quote of the day: "Do not let what you cannot do interfere with what you can do."

20 Minutes/40 Years - Isis

8:54 AM

God, this song is fracking amazing!!
I just can't get enough of it.
Anyways, new layout!
For some reason my other one just stopped working.
The picture at the stop was gone!
Very sad moment, indeed.

Anyways, I just a week vacation, but now it's sadly over.
It was pretty uneventful, but you know, that's how they always are.
But I spent a lot of time with Ceara, so that was nice.

Oh and I also forgot about my visit with the eye doctor.
Well, for some reason, I get faint really easily.
And the last time I went to the eye doctors, I almost passed out.
Well, my visit on Monday, I almost passed out again.
But this time, it was the scariest it's ever been.
My hands went completely numb, everything was beyond blotchy and changing colors.
It's not fun.

Question of the night: Do start the essay now? Or not?

1:25 PM

Why did you change?
Why did you bend and break?
When the water turns to wine,
It never feels the same.

I'm really disappointed in you.

RED CARPET GOING ON - Alice Nine [Live]

1:05 PM

I shouldn't be allowed to watch Alice Nine videos.
XD

Heart Of Fire - Innerpartysystem

9:59 AM

This song is probably one of the most powerful songs I've ever heard.
Anyways!
Today I want to talk about change.
It's something that everyone goes through at some point in their life,
or maybe all of their life.
And no, I'm not talking about puberty.
I mean, mental change.
But there's at least one point in everyone's life, where one goes through a drastic mental change.
A state of maturing.
Or perhaps, going through a traumatic moment of life that forever changes you.
Change is good.
For the most part.
But there are those little changes that a person goes through over time,
that sometimes just suck.
They slowly turn into a person, you don't even know.
Or maybe don't even want to know.
And it hurts when their no longer the person you met.
But at the same, you, yourself change, so maybe it's just the new you who doesn't appreciate them.
I know I've personally gone through many changes, but yet, I still feel pretty much like the same person.
I used to be really outgoing in elementary school, then middle school, I was completely invisible.
And now high school, I'm not really sure where I stand on the shyness meter anymore.
One change that I have noticed drastically, is my strength.
[Not physical, mental.]
I've gone through some pretty hard things in life and I think that's really changed me.
I feel more mature and stable.
But at the same time,
I feel so weak.
And I feel like I'm just a little kid.
I sometimes feel like everyone is growing up faster than me.
I'm just stuck in my own little world.
Never moving forward in life.
Most of the time, I feel like I know myself.
But do I really?
Is this truly who I am?

A New Sky - The Presets

2:47 PM

Flaws are a big part of life. Everyone has them, and no I'm not talking about just physical flaws. Dig deeper into yourself.

Post 20 of your flaws (and if you can't think of 25, well, start going into details):
1. I'm paranoid.
2. I'm creepy.
3. I'm a slight germaphobe.
4. I am extremely jealous.
5. I'm obsessive.
6. I'm really not pretty.
7. I know who I am, but I can't accept that.
8. I'm not great at the things I love.
9. I talk about people behind their backs all too much.
10. I never take risks.
11. I worry too much.
12. My morbid curiosity is immense.
13. I forgive too easily.
14. I don't stand up for what I believe in enough.
15. I don't speak up very often.
16. I don't ask questions in class, even when I'm very confused.
17. I'm too shy.
18. I'm very self-conscious.
19. I lack persistence.
20. My dreams are too big.

I feel like I could just go on forever.
Anyways, I challenge anyone who's reading this to think about 20 of their flaws. And if you have a blog, post them.

Question of the day: Can you accept your flaws?

The Duet - Never Shout Never

1:34 PM

This song just makes me happy.
Anyways, Halloween was this past weekend, also my sister's birthday!
And I went to a Halloween party and it was pretty fun.
Jordan and I were stealthy-ninja-robber-terrorists-Muslims.
It was pretty much amazing.

That's us with Lady Gaga and two cave women. :D

And this is Barbie and I. XD

Hahah I look like a terrorist in this picture.
I AM NOT A TERRORIST.
Just had to clarify that to the government, you know. XDD

That really creeps me out.
That like anyone has access to this.
Who knows, maybe one day my future boss will be reading this exact blog entry.
Hey Future Boss. :]
No but seriously, people need to think before they post anything on the internet.
It could ruin your life!
I always try to take caution,
but I'm all over the internet, so I'm probably already screwed.
Kidding, I've never posted or said anything bad, I promise!
I think?

Question of the night: Will my future boss actually read this one day?
(That is, if I don't become a rockstar. XD)